2026-07-22

A small red apple.

I bite a small red apple
and a lightning goes from my tongue through stomach to the toetips
and everything on its path twitches and clenches

I cannot think of anything else,
anyone else at all

I want to hold you and be held by you
i remember the smell of your exhale when i take another bite.

My vision blacks out and my hearing is smudged -
it's hard to eat this alone.

How.
How how is she so handsome
how is he so beautiful
how is rae so unbelievably
mindnumbingly hot.

The gate to heaven is
the feel of your hair on my chest and in my hands,
and the memory of your eyes locking with mine
over that small red apple
melts me faster than the pits of hell

please please please i hope apples keep tasting like this
i want to keep tasting this over and over until i taste you again

2026-05-11

Please, gently take
 all the hurt, scared horses
Bring them to a field
 nobody knows of
with streams and hills
 - oh, so
green and serene

2026-04-29

another day,
another special bond is getting broken -

if only one could soak in
a drop of other's pain.

and though the air is drenched in sun today,
it's woven out of sorrows

2026-02-23

A train takes me to work -
it's faster than anything else
to go to the city outskirts.

One day, after my eight hours,
i will instead board the one
that won't take me back.

	"Carry me far away,
	bring me to a station
	i never heard the name of"

I will walk on and on,
'til i reach a field no one knows,
And in months, a man will come -
searching for a missing person,

	a worker, a tax-payer.

Confused, he will find instead
	only a single mare,
	grazing, sleeping, running,
		forgetting what "working" means.

2026-01-19

Wish i were a beautiful carousel horse
at a big merry go round, somewhere in northern France.
Not at the coast, but somewhere near,
	to still get the nice air.

In my relative stillness,
bringing people joy,
watching kids grow,
	while only slowly rusting myself.

Not saying much, ever,
and feeling just fine most days.
Looking so precious and elegant
that jewel boxes are made after me and my kind.

	I bet getting restored feels great.

2022-12-30

(a poem made at a word magnets site)

i am       anything
you are   everything
where dawn is asleep
let's blossom together